Friday, August 18, 2006

Now what?

It's 3:04am and I'm sitting here trying to figure out, now what?
The six years it has taken to get here and the person I thought I was going to celebrate with I can't even tell him. Now what?

I know I'm going to move forward, it's just weird that the forward I envisioned no longer exists. Now what?
I am numb, I am numb, what direction? I don't know, now what?

This is a time for celebration, I just don't want to get into it right now, but for the kids I have to put on a "happy face" Now what? Every friggin dream I had has been stripped from me and I am pissed that again happiness is illuded. Now what?

I'm going to sit here and wait maybe I will get the answer to now what.

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